On Days Where It's Hard To Keep Breathing
I have this knot in the center of my chest, where my ribs meet. I don't know if anyone else could feel it, but I can't help but notice it's presence. It's there, whenever I breathe in, and I push past it to breathe out. I can't escape the extra weight. It flares up whenever someone asks me how I am, whenever someone stops for a second and really looks at me. I choke. I would rather no one sees me, on days like this. Not in a big "I don't matter" kind of way, but more that I am so lost in my mind that it would be easier if I didn't matter, because I do not want to be a hurricane for anyone else. Here's what I do on days like today: 1. I keep breathing. I push past the weight and let air fill my lungs. I try to not hold on to it so tightly. 2. I listen to the music that I want to. This looks a little different day by day, week by week. Right now, some songs I have on repeat are "Surface Pressure" (Encanto), "Why" and "Co...